eventually

i'm afraid to look at something beautiful for too long

i'm afraid that all the beautiful things will eventually make me sad

.

they want to talk like home is some remembrance for the future

snapping songs through eyes like they're real

when their boots know they'll sleep unkindly

as whiskey just drinks

and we don'

t

on occasion

sometimes i'm too much of a sob story for my own good

haikus express

reality stops

when i pick up that bottle

i drown and escape

for a moment felt

such closeness and light

shattered in time's grip

i cling to your lies

they are what keeps me afloat

my heart sobs in pain

if you knew my hurt

maybe not so complacent

please bleed as i do

circulatory

veins pump torment through my soul

father please hold me

haikus limit me

but they are the only way

to show what you've caused

yes i see your fear

oh, i see you trembling

i relish in it

boots

sometimes you just have to let yourself

sink

because

when you let everything hurt

incapacitate mutilate wrench bruise and lacerate

it's impossible to stay afloat anyways.

and tomorrow i'll pretend

i'm floating

from the bottom

shedding

i feel like a snake, that has just shed it's skin
new
vulnerable
and as if i've shed something tangible...
probably some inhibition

getting me by

licorice root
spearmint leaf
chamomile flower
skullcap leaf
cardamom seed
cinnamon bark
st. john's wort leaf
and flower
rose hip
orange peel
raspberry leaf
valerian root
english lavender flower
stevia leaf
passion flower
let steep